So my little attempt at being vague. . . . far less successful than I thought. Now, that I am "outed" and the appropriate relatives have been told, let's have some questions and answers. (And I promise this is not going to turn into one of "those" blogs--I still need this space to talk about my writing and distract me).
Q: NBHHY?
A: Nothing bad has happened yet.
Q: Are you really p-----t?
A: Yes. I can't seem to say or type the word but, yes.
Q: How did you find out?
A: I kept feeling like my period was about to start, and start, and start for days. Finally, with the help of a few PCOS gurus I decided I had a monster cyst going. I woke up Monday at 5:00 for the third day in a row with killer cramps, said "this is ridiculous" and took a test so that I could call Dr about cyst. Minutes later, I was waking Freak up going "am I hallucinating?"
Q: How did Freak react?
A: "That's nice, I sleep now." After he was awake, his excitement set in, but it didn't really kick in until the third brand of test agreed with the other two.
Q: Were you trying?
A: No. After the endocrinologist told us the chance was less than 10%, we stopped "trying" but didn't start preventing.
Q: Were you adopting?
A: Adopting was on hold due to money after the foot. Still, that was the game plan.
Q: Did you get a blood test?
A: Uh huh. My doctor's office hates me already. I got one, cried when I heard it was 550 and we were already 4 weeks, 1 day along. Cried more when the second was 1100.
Q: Are you having any symptoms?
A: The cramps. The cramps terrify me. I have a hard time believing this since the cramps keep screaming "period." Lower back ache. Tired. Queasy. Crazy bladder. I've become . . .even more well-endowed. Not exactly a bonus. Acene.
Q: How's the blood sugar?
A: After several low blood sugar readings, I've signed up for the eating every hour plan. My endocrinologist is thrilled saying, "Sometimes I'm wrong. I love to be wrong."
Q: How's the depression?
A: I had several long talks with my great doctor about what would happen if I got pregnant. She had me taking mega doses of folic acid "just in case" and after careful study of the literature, I'm going to continue my medication. Other than being really scared, my moods are really good.
Q: Hey! Doesn't the character of your WIP get pregnant! How cool is that?
A: The day before I got the positive test, I finally finishing the "tortured" black moment where my character almost dies from a ectopic miscarriage. I keep telling myself that the universe would not be that cruel. However, all my research has me on a first name basis with the clinic nurse as I investigate all twinges.
Q: How's the foot?
A: Out of the boot on Monday! No X-ray on Monday due to the news.
Q: When are you telling work?
A: Let's get through the first 12 weeks first. If we get that far, I'll just take a semester off.
Q: "If we get that far"--is that seriously how you're finishing all sentences these days?
A: Yes.
Q: How far is "far"?
A: Jan. 24 is first real OB appointment. Two weeks after that or so should be first ultrasound. Right now that's as far as I'm thinking. I just want to see something on the screen. March 3rd is 12 weeks. That seems like an awful long time to have nothing go wrong. There was some mention of something about Sept. 15---but I've got my fingers in my head going na na na na at that .
Q: Are the grandparents buying land in Oregon already?
A: No. But, both sides cried. They're all cautiously optimistic like we are. My brothers are really excited.
Q: Will this be the most knitted-for embryo in history?
A: No. I did cast-on for a cushion in bright-shiny colors. I'd like to knit a lot more for the project, but I'm nervous about casting-on too soon.
Q: Will you be having a home birth?
A: Birth? I just want to get to the first scan. Hospitals are nice places with lots of nice glucose and blood sugar control methods handy. I can see why *someone* might like a hospital.
Q: We love your room re-do pictures? When will we get nursery pictures?
A: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Q: Are you happy? You don't sound happy?
A: I'm over the moon thrilled. I've never felt this giddy before. But I'm also scared. The thing about hanging out in the blogosphere with all the other PCOS cool kids, is that I know how much can go wrong. I'm trying to be so happy and optimistic but also not ignorant of the risk. I do think that everything will be okay. I just have a hard time saying that outloud. Everything's going to be just fine. September is going to be amazing. Just amazing. I want to enjoy each day now, but the nerves . . . . .the nerves make it hard. This kid is staying put till Sept. 15 or it's grounded.
Holy Crap, We're going to be Parents!
Other questions?
OMG Bethany *sniff sniff* OMG *BIG SUPPORTIVE HUGS*
Posted by: TSCGirl | January 12, 2007 at 01:20 PM
Congratuations (again!). That's fabulous news. I'm thrilled for you.
Posted by: Elisabeth | January 12, 2007 at 01:35 PM
Many, many congrats! Sending positive thoughts your way that everything CONTINUES to go well - and I'm so very happy for you and Freak!
Posted by: tanya | January 12, 2007 at 05:26 PM
OMG!! Beth & Freak, I am SO happy for you guys. You will be in my thoughts as you go through this.
Keep healthy.
BTW, Im a Christmas surprise (born Oct 2).
-A
Posted by: Amanda | January 12, 2007 at 08:50 PM
And I repeat my earlier statement to you: HOLY SHIT! What an awesome surprise. I can imagine how scared you must be, the internets can do that to a girl. Keep up with the positive distractions (that seems to be what may have gotten you here!) YAY FOR YOU!!
Posted by: Stephanie | January 13, 2007 at 07:27 AM
WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO!!!! Oh girl, this is exciting news!! Congrats to you and Freak, and try not to worry so much until March 3rd (well, easier said than done) - the worry lessens as you go along - you'll be able to breathe a bit after the heartbeat ultrasound.
OMG I'm so happy for you both! What an awesome mommy you will be!!!!
Posted by: Frances | January 13, 2007 at 07:08 PM
Congrats! Keep the faith! You have so much potential as a parent that I know it will happen.
Posted by: Paty | January 14, 2007 at 09:32 AM
I am so incredibly happy for you! And I understand the being cautious part, but what a beautiful Christmas surprise!
Congratulations!!
Posted by: Pange | January 14, 2007 at 03:19 PM
Wow!! Congratulations!!
Posted by: baggage | January 14, 2007 at 08:51 PM
I will reserve congratulations, because I know what a challenge these first few weeks can be, but I will quietly whisper, "NBHHY."
Posted by: Erin | January 15, 2007 at 10:05 AM
Hey! I've been on vacation, so missed the news. I'll just keep saying NBHHY, and reserve the "C-word" for when you feel more confident, you know, like after the birth?
Posted by: Natalee | January 16, 2007 at 08:33 PM
I just found you through Erin (Viva La Colombia) and, as a fellow PCOSer, wanted to say the "C" word to you (but I'll reserve it until you're ready). I'm also a new professor and love it! I'll be interested to hear how things go!
Posted by: Erin | January 17, 2007 at 06:32 AM
Hi everyone, I notice there was a medical study of 18 women with abnormally low progesterone levels who weregivenvitex(chasteberry) daily. After 3 months of treatment, 13 showed increases in progesterone and 2 became pregnant. I got thisinformation from:
www.ovarian-cysts-pcos.com/vitex.
Posted by: Maril | May 22, 2007 at 01:49 AM
Hi everyone, you're aware of the recent news regarding Avandia and heart attack risk. But did you know it also increases the risk of bone fracture? That's according to an article by Dr. Nancy Dunne. She says improving the composition of your diet, getting more exercise and controlling chronic stress can go a long ways toward solving your insulin resistance problems. She describes how to use diet, exercise and stress management in her PCOS diet book.
Posted by: Lyn | May 28, 2007 at 10:03 PM